Thursday, March 11, 2010
So im turning 40
Dare I say it.... BUT .... i'm turning 40 this year. Ugh. In fact this month. At the beginning of the year I said to myself, Ward, you need to loose this weight you accired so skillfully over the past 10+ years. You need to quite smoking and you need to eat better.
You need to stop dilly dallying around and get to it. The garden is not in order. The house needs repairs here and there and OH... Where are you going? In college it all seemed so carefree.
classes by day, or sometimes, and parties and socializing at night. Trapsing around with that Silver Satchel in tow. Living that Dual life if you will.
You had PLENTY of time and it all will work out. PUFF. It's 20 odd years later and what's happening? Nuttin. Who am I? Where did i go? What am i doing?
I've always been amazed at the people that "have it all". Oh I know they really don't have it all cuz then us all shmucks wouldn't have what we have. But really. I guess what I am really looking for is peace of mind. I tried to find it in my late 20s. But then I was too busy freaking out I was going to turn 30 and when I did I discovered it wasn't so bad. I moved to Oklahoma City from Fargo, ND. (I was going crazy in Fargo and needed to get out and had an opertunity to move to OKC where my sister lived and i jumped on it. But that is a different story). I met my partner of 12.5 years now. We got a house and all seemed fine. Ahhhhhhhhhhh
BUT NOW.... I'm turning 40 and oh Lord. I've got some catching up to do.
So this is going to be my Tale from the Silver Satchel if you will. My tale of rebirth, rejuvination, rediscovery & re-opening that Silver Satchel and see where it takes me. Hang on. Hopefully it will not be TOO bumpy of a ride.
You need to stop dilly dallying around and get to it. The garden is not in order. The house needs repairs here and there and OH... Where are you going? In college it all seemed so carefree.
classes by day, or sometimes, and parties and socializing at night. Trapsing around with that Silver Satchel in tow. Living that Dual life if you will.
You had PLENTY of time and it all will work out. PUFF. It's 20 odd years later and what's happening? Nuttin. Who am I? Where did i go? What am i doing?
I've always been amazed at the people that "have it all". Oh I know they really don't have it all cuz then us all shmucks wouldn't have what we have. But really. I guess what I am really looking for is peace of mind. I tried to find it in my late 20s. But then I was too busy freaking out I was going to turn 30 and when I did I discovered it wasn't so bad. I moved to Oklahoma City from Fargo, ND. (I was going crazy in Fargo and needed to get out and had an opertunity to move to OKC where my sister lived and i jumped on it. But that is a different story). I met my partner of 12.5 years now. We got a house and all seemed fine. Ahhhhhhhhhhh
BUT NOW.... I'm turning 40 and oh Lord. I've got some catching up to do.
So this is going to be my Tale from the Silver Satchel if you will. My tale of rebirth, rejuvination, rediscovery & re-opening that Silver Satchel and see where it takes me. Hang on. Hopefully it will not be TOO bumpy of a ride.
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